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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

15.06.2025 00:39

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

She loved him until the end.

Are there legal obligations to report the known whereabouts of a missing person that doesn’t want to be found?

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Who then, do I blame.?

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

What were some things that the ancient Greeks excelled at compared to the Romans?

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

What did i know ?

Were you ever in love with your teacher?

It was going to be , some day.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I said to her

Will you share your wife? Can she take both of us at the same time?

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I don,t even have a pension.

Put me off passion for life!!

Why would the state lie about the Earth's shape? We know that it's flat, but why do they lie and tell us that it is a sphere?

I was scared of men, in general

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

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You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Why is my ex trying to provoke an argument with me?

Comes on , in middle age.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I was very sick at this time too.

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Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

All the time i was locked up.

Why did my ex of 2 years move on so fast after he left me? Why does he act so cold towards me, and as if I don't exist?

As i do to all so called friends.?

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

What do you think about a sister's love?

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Im still living with it.

What’s the saddest thing you’ve seen at your job?

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

This is soul school!.

Why does a straight man like anal penetration?

I will be 64.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Why do I feel like I want to suck a big dick after injecting meth?

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Can you name a song with the word 'why' in it?

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

As a teacher, what's the most inappropriate experience you've had with a student?

My mum and dad in the seventies!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

And i lived it daily.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

We were not on the streets..

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

My life is so biszare .

They are buried together, in the same grave..

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

My family never makes their pension either.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I never cut or harmed myself..

I couldn’t, believe it.

But it wasn’t much.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

One cannot live in the past .

But, we were locked up after school.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

But ive been too sick for many years..

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I think the readers, may guess!

I could never make a relationship work though!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

He resisted the act ,that day.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I have no regrets .

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

She found it foreign!.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Ive learnt so much.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

She married twice! .

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I waited trembling.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

(And it was in our own minds.)

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Was to survive, this bastard.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

So, i spoilt her more .

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

We all went to grammer schools

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

When she asked me how she looked .

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

He knew the spot.

I was 9 years of age.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

So whats the point in blame.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Would this be the day?

Especially a lifetime of it.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

The only rule us 5 kids had .

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

She wouldn,t have been !

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I write beautiful poetry .

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Why did i forgive my father ?

She was in good health!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I was seconnd youngest,

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .