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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 15:41

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Ive learnt so much.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Can I use the LEG PRESS to build muscle?

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

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One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

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Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

But ive been too sick for many years..

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

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But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Why do most atheists in debates with theists take Bible verses out of context much of the time? Are they lying maliciously or do they not understand theology enough to understand the meaning?

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I write beautiful poetry .

Where can I sell naked pics of myself online?

I think the readers, may guess!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I said to her

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And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Was to survive, this bastard.

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When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I was seconnd youngest,

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

What should I expect after a BBL surgery?

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

What did i know ?

(And it was in our own minds.)

Do married men like sucking dick?

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

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Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

One cannot live in the past .

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

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Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I took a video of my serve (60 FPS) and it took 0.4 seconds from my racket to the service line. How fast would you say my serve was?

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

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As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Especially a lifetime of it.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I was 9 years of age.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Im still living with it.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Put me off passion for life!!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

We were not on the streets..

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I was very sick at this time too.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

She was in good health!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Comes on , in middle age.

Who then, do I blame.?

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I will be 64.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

So, i spoilt her more .

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I don,t even have a pension.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

This is soul school!.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

My family never makes their pension either.

I was scared of men, in general

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

And i lived it daily.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I never cut or harmed myself..

This is how, and why children get BPD.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

She married twice! .

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I waited trembling.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

My life is so biszare .

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Why did i forgive my father ?

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

When she asked me how she looked .

I did it because my mum asked me too!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Would this be the day?

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

We all went to grammer schools

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I couldn’t, believe it.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

He knew the spot.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

But, we were locked up after school.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

It was going to be , some day.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

So whats the point in blame.

She wouldn,t have been !

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I have no regrets .

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

She found it foreign!.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

But it wasn’t much.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

All the time i was locked up.

He resisted the act ,that day.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I could never make a relationship work though!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

She loved him until the end.

He was dying to do it , i knew.